A Busy Time

Hello everyone,

I hope you all have been staying safe in these crazy times. I apologize for not posting in awhile, it’s been a bit crazy as of late. Life for me has been going well, a bit stressful at times but good. My new job treats me well and I work with some great people. However, as with everything, anxiety worms it’s way in. I face fear of failure and impostor syndrome. These feelings aren’t uncommon for me, but are things I’ve learned to fight through. I’m confident in myself if only to spite my own anxiety. I’m hoping that as my life continues I grow to be more confident and sure of myself.

With everything going on as well right now my life feels to both be busy but also not. I’m waiting for the day when it will be safe to be around friends and family. For whatever reason I feel that when Covid is done my life will calm down a bit. I’d love to go to the office and meet my coworkers in person. I feel that Covid makes life for me feel both busy and slow due to how much life has been thrown out of wack. I now have more time to work on my side projects, but also feel I have so much to do. Slowly but surely making my schedule a bit more steady.

Well til next time you guys. I hope you have a good week and stay safe.

Sick Week and Game Night

Hello Everybody,

I hope you guys had a good week that fulfilled a need of yours. My week was very quick because I was sick for part of it. I got a touch of a stomach bug or something and was just not feeling good for two days then I had lingering effects for the next two days. It was weird being sick and taking time off of work it reminded me of being in school. I haven’t been sick and had to take time off of my day to day in a long time. Even in college I was rarely ever sick and only took a few days off. One time I was sent home from work at school due to me being sick and unable to talk. In high school I got sick a lot more due to my anxiety disorder and not knowing how to deal with it. Senior year I had learned how to deal with it more with the help of therapy and other strategies I had learned. In college I had gotten a lot better at managing my anxiety and now I still deal with it but now I have many tools to deal with it.

After I started feeling better, we decided to have a game night. I enjoy game nights and hanging out with my family friends. We played some party games and then two of the people there are going to play D&D with me so we discussed their plans. It was a lot of fun to hangout and play different games. We ate good food and had a lot of great jokes. I hope to have more game nights in the future and maybe we’ll try different games and find more big party games. I have some ideas and will be happy to find them. I’m also excited to host them at my own apartment in the future.

Well till next week you guys. I hope you guys have a good week and I hope to have some good stuff to discuss with you.

Getting in the Swing of Things

Hello Everybody,

I hope you guys have had a good week so far. This week was good I made a lot of progress in learning and adapting to work. This week was also good as my anxiety and stress has gotten a lot better. The rest of my week has been spent trying to figure out what else to do with my time. I spend so much time on the bus going between home and work. Right now, I spend most of my time just watching my shows on the bus, but I want to get either a tablet or laptop like the Surface Pro so I can work on stuff while on the bus. I think I’ll be saving my money for that.

Its been nice to feel like I’m starting to get used to the job and aspects that were causing me anxiety. I’m looking forward to moving forward in this job and seeing how much more I grow with in it. I’m also looking forward to eventually moving and having more friends to hang out with. This weekend is BTS at Full Sail and it reminded me of my goal to eventually join Hall of Fame and go out to BTS as alumni. I’m curious to see at what point in my career I’ll be able to come down and do those events as a guest. I’m only a year into my post college career but I’m still looking forward to eventually doing that.

Well till next week you guys. I hope you have a good week and I’m looking forward to keeping you in the loop.

First Week of Work Done

Hello you guys,

I hope you guys had a great week. My week was fun, but it was also stressful and full of anxiety. It was my first week at my new job and that messed with my anxiety a ton and frankly still is. I’ve had to put pretty much all of my side projects on hold and focus on pretty much only on my job and that’s how it’ll be for a while, I think. This has added a bit more to my stress and anxiety levels, but it’s getting better and soon I’m hoping to be completely acclimated. I am hoping to continue working on D&D stuff and hopefully get a tablet or something to continue work on my journey to and from work. It feels almost like being back in high school where I am waiting for the weekend to relax.

My job though so far has been really interesting, and I’ve already learned a lot. The job is out in Redmond so it’s about a 45-minute drive or a 2-hour bus ride. As I bus, I have to wake up early and get home late. It’s been stressful and has given me plenty of anxiety but I’m starting to get used to it. I’m also starting to understand my work and not having to ask too many questions. I’m looking forward to being fully acclimated to my new schedule. I’m also looking forward to moving closer to my work, but that won’t be for a while. Also, I can’t go into too much detail on what I’m working on, but I’m looking forward to sharing it with you guys once my NDA allows it.

Well till next time you guys, I hope you guys have a good week and I hope next week I’ll have more news.

New Years and New Goals

Hello everybody!

Happy New Year! I hope you all had a great time bringing in the New Year. Mine was pretty subdued and relaxing. We watched Star Wars: A New Hope and tried to time the Death Stars explosion so that exploded right at midnight. We were really close to hitting it on the dot but we were maybe a minute off. The rest of the week was a lot busier. I’ve had to work a lot more Tales of Mahabharata in order to prepare for its upcoming expansion release. We’re in a phase where we are fixing any mistakes or issues with the game so that’s going to be my week other than job hunting and portfolio work.

Speaking of the ever present job hunt and portfolio work I’m setting out on a few new goals. I’m going to start uploading every week or so the updated version of my D&D story bible. This will be a way for you to see the progress I’m making on it and get an idea of the process I’m taking. Keep in mind it is a work in progress so right now it’s a little unorganized and a bit like word vomit, but I think it’ll be fun to show the progress. As for the rest of my portfolio. I plan on working on some more personal projects and other things to beef up my portfolio. I’ll also probably be expanding my job search soon as well to try and get a job to make money while I work on my game goals. It’s all very exciting and anxiety filled I’m excited to see where it goes.

Well till next week you guys. I hope you have an awesome and exciting week. I hope to have good news for you all next week.